arigator

black void screams

Bello friens, arigator here! it is currently September 2026 when i am creating this site, this summer was not kind to me this year has been the most challanging year ive faced yet and that says alot because i have traversed through the trenches to be where i am today. i experienced pain and grief like i never had before at times i did not think i would survive it but as you can tell, i did. i feel indifference towards that concept so ive decided i want to do more than survive i want to be happy! teaching myself coding and learning from amazing creators has given me an outlet to pour myself into eternally grateful to the indie web for giving me someting to be excited about since i lost myself, through creative expression i am on a journey to find myself again, feel free to join me!

>Background Yappathon! my entire life ive always felt the most at peace when creating! i always had an affinity for the arts as a whole as a child i was always curating something,the world went away when i loved what i was doingwith a tendency to dissosociate this kept me grounded and still does to this day, for example, i absolutely love writing poetry and making jewlery! if you'd like to see some of my creations they will be linked in the web directory! i also sell jewlery on depop if youre interested in supporting a small buisness by ya girl, arigator! if not thats completely fine, i hope to inspire the creatives through sharing mine!

I am a very introspective person always in my head, an a ADHD girly i have a very chaotic mind, i try to see this as a gift although sometimes it feels like a curse. i am tormented by my own brain some days others, i am inspired to create which always helps! As you can probably imagine, the adhd does not make this easy its me and my 25 hobbies and special interests against the world!

today's vibes are:

• daydreaming
• listening to music
• journaling

dear friens,

this site is a work in progress! expect errors ya girl is learning!

parasite??
i often get asked why i refer to myself as parasite accross my socials,thats a good question friens! ive always seen parasites as an allegory for mental illness, addiction, trauma; as a person who has struggled with this my whole life, when you are affected so greatly by an illness that it makes you lose autonomy and makes you feel like you are no longer human it feels like your brain has been overtaken by parasites eating away at you, you become nothing but a host to them, a vessel always left empty and drained of your life force. during episodes of depression this is more prevalent but it also happens with mania its just different, either way it feels like you are being fed on. where does the illness end where do i begin? how long can the parasites feast on your brain till you become one of them? rejecting and denying their existence only made the illness come back with vengance a vendetta against its host.

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